Magick
for Change
by Michelle Carver
There
was a knock at the door. We waited anxiously for the second knock, the
pattern that would tell us who it was. Three followed by two. It was Skywolf,
the last straggler. Myst opened the door and in stepped the hulking, red
bearded form of our coven mate. He shook the snow from his coat as Myst
check the street behind him to be sure he wasn’t followed.
“It’s O.K., I wasn’t spotted, but I’m going to have to miss the next few
Esbats. My boss is getting suspicious of me. I’ve requested too many full
moon nights off. ” He was out of breath, and his normally booming voice
was softened by fear. No one said anything for a long while. We were all
getting nervous about the safety of our coven. Since the Morals Coalition
managed to get Witchcraft outlawed following the Old Religion was dangerous.
The new curfew on full moon nights was making it very difficult to get
together to worship.
The brooding silence was broken by Myst as she gestured to Paul to help
her with the china cabinet. With the usual grunting and strain, the cabinet
was moved three feet to the left to reveal the basement door. We filed
down as always, but the mood was somber instead of the usual festive atmosphere
of our monthly gatherings. There was a lot to discuss tonight, very little
of it was good.
Myst’s basement was a regular old basement. It was halfway to being finished
as a recreation room, with bookshelves along one wall, and an old couch
against another. Now the bookshelves held only a few old fantasy and science
fiction paperbacks. Myst had her occult books better hidden somewhere else.
The china cabinet in front of the door was only a precaution. There really
wasn’t anything down here that could be incriminating. Maybe a few more
candles than is usual, but even those could be explained away easily.
Paul and Amber moved around the edges of the room as we stood there in
the dark. They checked the covers on the windows to be sure no light could
be seen from outside. Myst remarked, “I really should paint those windows
over. It would save us time.”
Skywolf shook his head, we could see it as the first flickers of candlelight
filled the room, “Not a good idea, Myst. ‘People who draw their shades
have something to hide.’ as Deacon McMillain says. It would only bring
attention to you.” Ah, the good Deacon, head of the Family
Values Commission. The FVC was the theocracy’s answer to Child Protective
Services, and was worse in every way imaginable. I shuddered and moved
to help with the candle lighting as he finished speaking, “Anything we
do that is out of the ordinary will only make it that much easier for the
inquest to find us.”
“’Inquest’ Ha!, why don’t they call it the Inquisition and get it over
with?” spat Amber, her blond hair swinging wildly as she spun towards Sky.
“That’s what it is, and everyone knows it. The only difference is no hot
pokers. You heard what happened to Blue Moon Coven over in Hiensville.
Poor Sue. Her house confiscated and her in ‘Therapy’. Reprogramming is
what it really is. And her husband denounced her in public. In public!
Some loyalty.” She really did spit this time. “If it weren't against the
Rede I’d curse the whole lot of them, the politicians, the Christians,
and Sue’s husband, too.” She was on the verge of tears.
Myst stepped over then and put a hand on Amber’s shoulder. “We all know
how bad it is,” she soothed. “After the ritual tonight we are going to
figure out what to do about it. We are still American citizens, and we
do still have some rights.” She hugged Amber quickly, then smiled sadly,
“We’re not going to go down quietly, and we’re not going to let them get
away with this.”
I pulled the table to the center of the room and draped the altar cloth
across it as Skywolf gathered the tools together. The cauldron was disguised
as a planter in the corner of the room, and he pulled out the bucket and
the fake fern, then dragged the cauldron over by the alter. We didn’t use
a pentacle. Having anything with a pentagram on it was too dangerous. Instead
we had a simple wooden plate that I had found at a yard sale last year.
The athame was a paring knife from Myst’s kitchen, and the chalice was
a wine glass from her set.
“We shouldn’t have let this happen in the first place.” I commented, “We
should have seen it coming. We should have stood and fought when it did,
instead of running like scared rabbits. I guess jobs were more important
than freedom.”
“Don’t be so hard on everyone, DD, you know good and well that for most
of us it wasn’t our jobs. It was our kids and our marriages. When the courts
ruled Wicca a cult, we were afraid to loose our homes and families.” This
was from Paul, who lost his children to the FVC anyway, despite hiding
his beliefs. The courts decided he wasn’t a ‘good moral role model.’ That
surprised all of us. Paul is one of the most honorable and kind people
I know. “I’m not saying it was the right thing to do, only that that’s
why.”
Myst finished arranging the altar, “Well,” she said, as she smoothed out
a wrinkle in the altar cloth, “talking about the past won’t change the
way things are now. Dragonsdóttir, if you would, Hon, will you sweep
the area, and we’ll get started.” She handed me the broom, and took the
bowl of salt from the altar. We moved around the room, cleansing and purifying
the ritual space. Skywolf finished changing over to his robe, and the mood
became more serious as the five of us took our accustomed places for the
ritual.
We worked magick for change that night. We appealed to the Old Gods to
help us restore our freedom, just as the remaining covens across the country
were probably doing that night, and just as we had done on the last two
full moon nights. After the ritual, but before releasing the circle, we
sat for hours and discussed what to do to get our rights back.
“There’s something I wanted to bring up tonight.” Paul interjected, interrupting
the gripe session that our talk had degenerated into. “I got this through
the grapevine from the Reclaiming folks. You know that they’ve organized
into cells like a wartime underground movement, right? Well, they are treating
this like a war, and they are planning their own coup. I don’t know what’s
in the works, but we need to be ready for it. I’ll keep you all informed
if I hear more. Oh, don’t look at me like that, I don’t think they mean
a literal coup d’tat. Anyway, I think we ought to join them.”
We debated for a while, trying to figure out what they might have in mind,
and deciding whether we should join them, or if we would be safer on our
own. We were interrupted once, when Amber thought she heard someone walking
around outside. We all froze, and I forgot to breathe. All that secrecy
and skulking around had gotten us jumpy. The sound died away after a few
minutes, and we all let out a sigh of relief..
“Must have been the neighbor. He always takes his dog out about this time,”
Myst rationalized away the sound, but it didn’t help. Even neighbors were
bad news if they saw what we were doing. We decided that it would be a
good idea to put away the candles and altar, just in case. That turned
out to be a good decision. We released the circle and cleaned up in record
time. When everything was back the way it was, we went upstairs to Myst’s
dining room for coffee. Paul and Skywolf had no sooner moved the china
cabinet back into place when there was a knock at the door.
We all looked at each other for several heartbeats. Then Sky moved to the
door the way we had planned. He was the largest of us, six foot five, wide
enough to block the door, and, though I knew he was really just a big teddy
bear, he could be very intimidating when he choose to be. He would give
us a chance to slip out the back if it was needed. Amber licked her lips
and glanced nervously at the back door. She was trembling, and I knew she
would panic if we had to run. I resolved to stay near her and see to it
she made it out safely. Paul whispered through clenched teeth, “Remember
the meeting place.”
Myst, always the practical one, continued making coffee, but I could see
that her knuckles were white as she moved a kitchen knife within easier
reach. I hoped she wouldn’t have to use it, but I knew she could if she
had to. I’d seen how efficiently she could skin a deer, and I also knew
how deadly her aim was. Close up or at range, that knife would make a formidable
weapon in her hands.
It’s amazing how slowly time seems to move when adrenaline hits you. I
noticed all of this in the time that it took for Skywolf to check the door’s
peephole, and I had time to make sure that Amber’s and my coats were
in easy reach, too. It was snowing pretty heavy that night. I didn’t want
us to be caught outside without them.
After what seemed forever, Sky announced in a low voice, tight with tension,
“Myst, I think it’s your neighbor. Should I open it?”
Myst nodded, “Yes, let him in.” She ran her hand through her short-cropped
hair and made a quick scan of the living room and kitchen to make sure
everything was in place. She smiled as Skywolf pulled the door open, and
greeted her neighbor kindly. She’d have made a great actress. The rest
of us were, as my Gram used to say, nervous as long tailed cats in a room
full of rocking chairs, and it showed.
“Hello, Mr. Crane, come on in out of that snow. Would you like some coffee?”
she motioned him in. He just stood there in the doorway,
looking like his name suggested, tall and skinny as a rail.
He shook his head.
"I know what you Heathens are doing in here." His eyes darted to
each of us. The shone with what I believe to be a mix of fear and righteous
indignation. "I saw your altar to the Devil, your infernal ceremony.
The police are on the way." He was shaking with anger as he stepped
forward into the house. "The Lord will punish you! Idolaters! Satanists!
You could have had Love from our Lord but you betray Him instead! Pagans!"
he spat and before he could continue his shouting, Skywolf lifted him up
gently and put him back outside the front door, then he waved goodby to
him and slammed the door. I would have laughed at the sight if I
had not been so terrified. Sky grabbed his coat, I already had mine on
and had handed Paul and Amber theirs. Myst was getting hers from the closet
when banging at the front door started again. We could hear sirens
in the distance and they were getting closer. Mr. Crane was shouting
again. He'd have the whole neighborhood out on their lawns in a minute.
We wasted no time. Paul was the first one out the door. Myst stopped
to turn off the coffeemaker and the lights, and Skywolf was hurrying her
along. I grabbed Amber's hand and pulled her. I was right. She'd
panicked and frozen but once I started pulling she snapped out of it and
ran too. Paul and Myst went over the back fence with no problem.
Skywolf had to help Amber and me. Amber was too short to reach the top
and I had never been very athletic. I resolved then and there if I ever
got out of this I would quite smoking and work out more. Sky pulled himself
over after we were down.
The other two had stopped long enough to make sure we made it over, Myst
was looking sorrowfully at her house. It was likely that she would never
see it again. The new laws would let the government confiscate it. The
anti-cult laws put "spreading false spirituality" on the same level as
crack cocaine!
We split up as we had planned to. We all knew where tomeet. "Goddess watch
over us." I whispered as I watched my friends run for their lives. I picked
a route and ran for mine, too.
Not being a fast or enduring runner, I decided the best thing to do was
to find someplace to hide and hold out 'till morning. The snow was
going to make it difficult though. My tracks stood out like a neon sign.
I headed towards the convenience store two blocks over. I knew that their
bathroom was right next to a rear service door and that would break up
my trail.
The trick must have worked because I didn't get caught, though it was a
long cold night and not an experience I would care to repeat. I couldn'tgohome.
They would be at my apartment and all my stuff would have been confiscated
by morning. It was a long walk to the rendezvous point.
I waited in the bathroom of the rest station near the Interstate. Our meeting
place was a picnic table there, hidden from the parking lot by a screen
of bushes. I could see it from the ladies room window. This time of morning
the rest stop was empty and it was well heated. I ducked into a stall whenever
someone came in.
I was there for several hours before I saw Paul. He glanced around quickly
from his spot near the tree line. The rest stop was busier now and
he had to be careful that no one saw him come from the woods. He
hurried to the table and I left the warm semi comfort of the ladies room
to meet him. By the time I got there, Myst has arrived as well. I
saw Skywolf getting out of the cab of a tractor trailer. Apparently, he
had hitched a ride.
Amber was the only one missing, but she was more resourceful than I had
given her credit for. She'd managed to get to an ATM machine and
cleaned out her savings account before the powers that be could freeze
her assets. There had been a van sitting on the cornor a few blocks
from her place with a "For Sale" sign on it. She waited for the owner
to be up and about and bought the van. She used an assumed name and paid
cash for it. The tags on the van were good for a couple of months, too.
She pulled up a little after noon, just when we were sure she had been
caught.
Paul knew how to contact the Reclaiming Underground and we voted unanimously
to do so. We had lost everything we owned that night, but we hadn't
lost hope. We contacted the Underground and they set us up with a place
to stay. We joined one of the cells and we've been working with them to
get things set right again.
I think the Goddess made sure we would be seen that night. She gave us
just what we asked for in that Ritual. She cleaned out all the distractions
in our lives and made us see that hiding in a basement was never going
to change anything. We're making a real difference here in the Underground.
It's going to get better soon. One of our own is in the Presidential race
this year. If we can get him into office, maybe we can get our freedom
back.
The End (or the beginning!)
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